its clear to all my friends that its my fault. everyone's cursing me, im paying for what i did. Im paying for my own misunderstanding. You never did messed up, i was at fault. everyone said, "ASSHOLE LAH AMIRUL", "BLOODY HELL NEVER CHECK FIRST ANYHOW GO CONFRONT HER", "WHY THE FUCK YOU NEVER TRUST HER SIA", "BODOH SIAK KAU MIRUL", KAU BUAT MALU LELAKI JER". Yes, im paying back for my shit. Im sorry, i didnt mean to embarass you at all, but everyone knows real story now, they know that im the one who's at fault. I WAS THE ONE AT FAULT FOR THIS WHOLE THING. it was unnecessary, im sorry i hurt you. i know my apology wouldnt mean a thing, but the next time i see you i WILL APOLOGISE AGAIN. And when i apologise, i hope you look me straight in the eyes, i hope you know im speaking straight from the HEART SINCERELY. Love, i really am sorry. Don't blame yourself, don't blame maman, blame me. Its my fault ohmyallah, its my fault. I didnt meant to cause shit, this was my mess. And now im cleaning it up in embarrassment. You didnt have to go through all that, you didnt deserve that. Not at all. You didnt deserve to cry, be embarrassed, hurt because of me. I dont want you to regret meeting me NurulAfiqah, i need you to stay, i need you to erase my sins towards you. i really need you to forgive me.

I'm imperfect. i never get things right. I hate being in love at first, till she came around. Now she's gone, and once again my trust for girls got destroyed. Im sick of all this. Anyway, i've never liked studying, hated reading. I know my limits. I tweet a lot, hell lot. This blog is where shit comes out and never gets back in. Byezxc. I hate those who think they're perfect. If you are one, go kill yourself.

Mum and Dad call me Amirul. Yeah that's my name. Im 17 this year, just one more year to go before i take on my motorcycle license xD My O levels are long gone, i did well enough and here I am studying at Temasek Polytechnic, Engineering student. I never thought i'll love again, she gave me hope. Now she's gone, i felt all my hope crumble down. I feel so empty, so lost. Its just too sudden.
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