im the dumbest guy ever. i almost lost a friend. i misunderstood. You see, guys dont tend to make that much mistakes. But when they do, that mistake they make is a big one. Nurul Afiqah, gave me a second chance. Great friends forgive and forget, great friends give chances. She is a great friend, the best ex i've ever had. I couldnt imagine being in bad terms with her, i was willing to do whatever it takes to be friends with her again. I WAS AN ASSHOLE, for not trusting her. A HUGE ASS. Friends trust each other. That was my mistake. I've never fought back for something this badly, but my relation with her was something i held so dearly, something i never wanna lose no matter what happens. I just, really do, appriciate her so much. 3 hours on the phone, apologising, debating, crying, sorting things out, getting hung up, rejecting my calls, ignoring my calls over and over again, kept hearing "I dont wanna do this anymore, i wanna end this". I was willing to go through all that to get her back. You know i treat you more than just a friend. You know i'd never let you go. You know i'd do anything to get you back. You know i never meant to hurt you. You know how much i regret doing that. You know i'll never do it again. You know how much i love you. Because all these while, i've never stopped loving you even through thick and thin, i still do love you. I was serious about us all these while. We started out what we had, we lost what we had, now slowly insyallah we'll get back what we had.

I'm imperfect. i never get things right. I hate being in love at first, till she came around. Now she's gone, and once again my trust for girls got destroyed. Im sick of all this. Anyway, i've never liked studying, hated reading. I know my limits. I tweet a lot, hell lot. This blog is where shit comes out and never gets back in. Byezxc. I hate those who think they're perfect. If you are one, go kill yourself.

Mum and Dad call me Amirul. Yeah that's my name. Im 17 this year, just one more year to go before i take on my motorcycle license xD My O levels are long gone, i did well enough and here I am studying at Temasek Polytechnic, Engineering student. I never thought i'll love again, she gave me hope. Now she's gone, i felt all my hope crumble down. I feel so empty, so lost. Its just too sudden.
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