Have you ever got that feeling of how sinful you've been? I have. I admit im a sinner. I've been rude to my parents, i've scolded vulgarities so many times, made secondary teachers cry, paitau people, whacked my brother, disturbed chubby and so much more. I admit to missing so many of my prayers and i admit i've skipped friday prayers before. I wanna change so badly. I wanna have a change of heart. Its time i put Allah ahead of everything. Its time i prioritize my studies more than fun. Its time i be polite and yes no more vulgarities other than "walao". If only it was easier done than said. But i need Allah's help to do all these, i've been listening to doa taubat these days, wake up in the middle of the night for no reason thinking about my overflowing sins.

~ Aku menyerah diri kepadamu ya Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyanang. Terimalah aku hambamu ini dalam golongan orang yang beriman. Ampunkan lah dosa dosa aku. Astaufirllahalazim.




Wokay back to simple life. Tomorrow's mock exam, soSIAL stuDIEs and geography. Im so dead. wasnt paying attention in class. walao. hahaha i was so rebellious in class just now. put my leg up on the table, jawab balik kat cikgu, didnt do work.. haiz.. mirul mirul. what is it you want? thats sinful man. Argh. Anyway, gonna wake up at 8 tomorrow. wanna study first then off to school.

Attire:

ncc shirt
school pants
pierre cardin underwear
vans shoez
quiksilver bag.

Attitude:
slack
cant be bothered
panic
rebellious.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST! This post goes out to FARISYA NUR FATIN!!! wanna wish her good luck and all the best for her scan tomorrow. Insyallah your results are gonna be okay. Goodluck dear friend :D

I'm imperfect. i never get things right. I hate being in love at first, till she came around. Now she's gone, and once again my trust for girls got destroyed. Im sick of all this. Anyway, i've never liked studying, hated reading. I know my limits. I tweet a lot, hell lot. This blog is where shit comes out and never gets back in. Byezxc. I hate those who think they're perfect. If you are one, go kill yourself.

Mum and Dad call me Amirul. Yeah that's my name. Im 17 this year, just one more year to go before i take on my motorcycle license xD My O levels are long gone, i did well enough and here I am studying at Temasek Polytechnic, Engineering student. I never thought i'll love again, she gave me hope. Now she's gone, i felt all my hope crumble down. I feel so empty, so lost. Its just too sudden.
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