I dont know why, i just wanna start a new blog. hell yeah its pure. The reason why i started a new blog is because i realised that my past post we're just extreme bullshit. Besides that blog has memories i've never wanted to hold. I wanna have a new start. In life, you can never restart, you cant entirely forget the shits and the good times can never be lived again. Too bad in the cyber world, a restart is possible.

Have you ever lay down on your bed, with your arms at the back of your head, staring at the ceiling thinking to yourself what the fuck do you want in life? i have. I'm always thinking to myself about all the things i want in life just before i die. I thought about my sins and my deeds, i thought about life after death, i asked myself all the questions which i knew deep inside i wont be able to find the answer easily.
I'm only 15 moving on to 16. Theres still so much in life i've yet to discover. Love, family, religion. Sigh. I cant imagine myself when i'm older. Will i be rotting in prison? will i be some brainiac who discovered something awesome? will i be an ustaz who loves teaching about Islam more than anything else? All these things make me realise that i have to find out what i wanna be. I've yet to choose my path after secondary school, i dont know what polytechnic i wanna enter, i dont know what course i wanna take. I'm lacking behind so badly. And my studies? Haha. I laugh to myself because i know i suck and i'm in deep shit if i continue to slack like this.




Love? yeah i agree its a little too early to start. But sometimes you just cant control that. Your brain says its too early, your heart says go for it. Day and night you kept looking at that person's updates online, his or her pictures, blogs, tweets and everything. You're in love and you kept denying to yourself. Ever had that before? And the worst thing is what you feel when that crush of yours found a partner of his of her own. It strikes you to the heart does it? i know. we know. we all know.

Okay here's some shits of my own,

1. Life is something you go through once, appriciate it.
2. Love will come around searching for you, dont waste your time looking for it.
3. Say walao the everything that turns you down, its so much better than vulgarity.
4. You'll never know if your friends might be there for you all the way. Some might leave and never come back, one might just be your soulmate.
5. You'll never know what you needed, until its gone. Be thankful.

I'm imperfect. i never get things right. I hate being in love at first, till she came around. Now she's gone, and once again my trust for girls got destroyed. Im sick of all this. Anyway, i've never liked studying, hated reading. I know my limits. I tweet a lot, hell lot. This blog is where shit comes out and never gets back in. Byezxc. I hate those who think they're perfect. If you are one, go kill yourself.

Mum and Dad call me Amirul. Yeah that's my name. Im 17 this year, just one more year to go before i take on my motorcycle license xD My O levels are long gone, i did well enough and here I am studying at Temasek Polytechnic, Engineering student. I never thought i'll love again, she gave me hope. Now she's gone, i felt all my hope crumble down. I feel so empty, so lost. Its just too sudden.
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