I'm confused. Should i wait any longer? Should i move on? She said i'm wasting my time, she no longer shows me that she still has feelings for me, she no longer says the three letter words, she no longer send me long texts, she no longer gives me goodmorning texts, she showed me she really can't love no more. So why am i still waiting? Whats the point? Can't i just shut the hell up and move on with life? What is she the only woman out there? So what if she's different, beautiful, cute and whatever? Everyone's like that what! You're such a loser amirul, you're hoping for something that you know will never happen, you're wasting you're bloody time. So obvious you guys are not meant to be, why are you still holding on? Its so easy to let go what. There's so many signs that she'll never love again, you'll obviously never get her back. There's better guys out there for her amirul, guys who's good enough for her, guys who are far more suitable for her, guys who can truly make her believe in love again. Forget it amirul. You're never getting her back, never. So just stop trying kay? Just get lost.



~voices in my head.


I pray every now and then that i will get you back, i need you back. I need you to believe in love. Sigh, maybe everything i just typed up there is true. Astaufirllah.

I'm imperfect. i never get things right. I hate being in love at first, till she came around. Now she's gone, and once again my trust for girls got destroyed. Im sick of all this. Anyway, i've never liked studying, hated reading. I know my limits. I tweet a lot, hell lot. This blog is where shit comes out and never gets back in. Byezxc. I hate those who think they're perfect. If you are one, go kill yourself.

Mum and Dad call me Amirul. Yeah that's my name. Im 17 this year, just one more year to go before i take on my motorcycle license xD My O levels are long gone, i did well enough and here I am studying at Temasek Polytechnic, Engineering student. I never thought i'll love again, she gave me hope. Now she's gone, i felt all my hope crumble down. I feel so empty, so lost. Its just too sudden.
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