I guess its too late to talk now. All hope's gone. I don't know why i keep on trying, what's wrong with me? Why i just can't let go when obviously we're not meant to be? Maybe its true, we shouldn't have got to know each other so closely in the first place. Now its killing me inside to see us slowly drifting apart. I don't know why i get jealous easily, ohmyallah she's not even mine anymore, sigh. I fail every single time i try to let go, i'll just keep on failing. It sure was easy for her to let go. Sigh, I can't lie to myself. I kept telling myself i don't love you, but deep inside i do, i really do. My buddies told me, the one who you love most is gonna hurt you most in the end. She didn't hurt me, I'm the one who killed myself.

Its been so long, still I cant get over you
I never like to hear the truth of what went
wrong. Im feeling down, each and
every single night. In my head I
try to fight, the truth that you're
gone.

17oct2010,10:44pm. is it all a terrible mistake? Astaufillah, insyallah its not.